Something struck me when I was about to sleep last night. Suddenly, she just came into my mind. Whenever I see her online, a part of me wants to talk to her, but the other just kept fuming at how hot and cold she was towards me during the past few months. I'm concern about her. How is she coping at work? In school? Everyday life? Is she happy? Is she sad? Is she tired? etc etc...

On several occasions, I have told myself not to msg her anymore. Still, I would double click on her name, allowing the conversation box to pop out. I will then stone, eventually pressing the 'x' button...

It is so ambiguous between us right now. I thought I was sure of how she felt towards me when I was in sg for my summers. I was wrong then. Foolish? Maybe. As always? Yes, I think so. All the time and effort (I have never spent so much effort before in 22 yrs of my life) I spent during my holidays, suddenly seem like acts of foolishness to me right now. I just felt that she was taking me for granted, something which is very very hurtful. All the little promises she made to me, none of them came true. Maybe they are just misrepresentations. Maybe they are just trivial matters to her. To me, they are hope.

DUMB DUMB DAMIAN LIM. Isn't this what love is all about? L-O-V-E=H-U-R-T? (Am I right Ms J?) =/ Better get my ass back to work and push those damn marks up.